money money money

ahhhh!!!
i miss my friends.
i need my texts!!
i am dying......

having no money and no free text on my phone the past few days, i have felt so completely isolated from the rest of the world! its like i've been living in my own bubble, like i was robinson crusoe. stranded entirely alone on an island.

i really need my texts. im lost without my fon. a part of me is missing. *sobs

so im sorry to those that i haven't replied yet. will do soon! money comin in. whoever said money isn't everything must have been a bloody rich idiot. ish. it is everything :P

Party mode

a late happy easter wish ppl :) have been busy during my hols, what with the parties, the birthdays, the catching up and.....more partying.im on to my second week of my hols, one more to go and its back to uni once more. 2nd term will definitely be harder so i'd have to actually do some work. sigh.

you'd think that with allll the free time i have now, i'd have found a lil time for my exercise and save money plan. but....if u noe me, my "tomorrow" hardly ever comes around. not only am i church mouse poor, but i have a sinking feeling that im ballooning again. double sigh.
my holidays have been great so far, am planning a trip to Lake Tekapo on Thursday. pics will be posted..if i end up going ;)

Apart from that, as i mentioned just now, its just been a lot of lazing and drinking for me. i have GOT TO stop with the booze. seriously. few friends from Dunedin came up, so as usual..it was party partayyy during easter weekend.

Our uni had a dance party on Sunday night, HAVOC.it was huge. bigger and better than last year but....far too many ppl. and thanks to some connections, we dint have to wait for hours like some of the late comers. hardly any pics were taken tho, we were far too busy downing drinks :P so..the few pics that i have will be posted soon.

for the meantime, infinite x's and o's.

Armageddon

Armageddon. The end of days. The movie.
Deciding to stay in tonight on a saturday night, i decided to watch what showing on tv, and lo and behold, it was armageddon. one of my favourite movies which i don't 'dare' to watch again. silly isnt it? But it's true. I think this might be the 2nd or 3rd time i've watched it since 1998, which was when it came out. The reason behind my fear of rewatching this movie is due to the part where dear ol Bruce stays behind to blow up the huge rock.The part where he says his goodbye to his daughter is the most heartbreaking. it makes you wonder just what and exactly how much a parent would do for their child's happiness.

All this reminded me of my dad. My father who just turned 59 a few days ago. Yes, 59. one more year to hitting the big six-0. It's all a bit scary to be honest. Knowing that they're not going to be there forever.Even now, across how many thousand miles, he'd still text me after midnight my time to ask where i was, and to go home as soon as i could. All that love and concern which i might have times interpreted as him being controlling from so far away. sigh. It's about time i realized just how old my dad is getting. That he doesn't have the same amount of energy anymore. That the white hair on his head is just going to get thicker.

Happy belated birthday daddy. I love you.





















































Ps: oh right. If you read this in time. EARTH HOUR!! an hour lights off at 8.30pm local time. :)

i've been pretty out of touch with anyone from home lately. be it parents, the remaining musketeers or my high schoolies. i've just had a bit too much on my mind and of procrastinated work. The much dreaded "engineering nights" have begun. unfortunately. the same old routine is back.

dinner. shower. coffee/bubble tea takeaway. uni till early morning.

GREAATTT....

apart from those long nights at uni starting again, nothing much has happened, nothing much has changed since the last post. i still hate engineering, im still self-sabotaging, my plan of regular exercise and healthy eating is still not happening..and im still as emo and bored as always :)
oh, except for the last post from a dear friend of mine * cough*loi*goh*cough that cheered me up a little.

as nothing dramatic or THAATT exciting has happened to me in the past week or so, i am going to entertain you guys with some looonng overdued pics. of me n my family and of my friends here.
enjoy
*muah

my house....right.






























it starts with a poke......














and it ends with a kiss!





























more of the welly trip:
































































that's all from me for now! coffee's calling.
xoxo

stuck in my head

She's starin' at me,
I'm sittin', wonderin' what she's thinkin'.
Mmmmm
Nobody's talkin',
'Cause talkin' just turns into screamin'.
Ohhh...
And now is I'm yellin' over her,
She's yellin' over me.
All that that means
Is neither of us is listening,
(And what's even worse).
That we don't even remember why were fighting.

So both of us are mad for...

Nothin'
(Fighting for).
Nothin'
(Crying for).
Nothin'
(Whoahhh).
But we won't let it go for
Nothin'
(No not for)
Nothin'.
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got.
Ohhh, baby...

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

And it gets me upset, girl
When you're constantly accusing.
(Askin' questions like you've already known).
We're fighting this war, baby
When both of us are losing.
(This ain't the way that love is supposed to go).

Whoaaaaaaaaa...
[What happened to workin' it out].
We've falled into this place
Where you ain't backin' down
And I ain't backin' down.

So what the hell do we do now...
It's all for...

Nothin'
(Fighting for).
Nothin'
(Crying for).
Nothin'
(Whoahhh).
But we won't let it go for
Nothin'
(No not for)
Nothin'.
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got.
Ohhh, baby...

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

Oh baby this love ain't gonna be perfect,
(Perfect, perfect, oh oh).
And just how good it's gonna be.
We can't fuss and we can't fight
Long as everything alright between us
Before we go to sleep.

Baby, we're gonna be happy.

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

broken compass

been awhile since my last post. i haven't been really busy, i just wasn't at home a lot :) another weekend has gone by, its been 2 weeks since my parents have gone home and i was good this week. no clubbing :) instead, i opted for retail therapy instead of booze *pats head

which leads me to the AWESOME movie that all of u have to watch!! i don't know if Malaysia is faster or slower than us, but if you haven't seen it, go see it! and if you have, watch it again! :) another movie that i can totally relate to.. the feeling of buying something new, the moment you receive the bag with your new clothes in it, and if you go to the mall as often as me, the excitement at seeing new clothes that have just come in :)
oh wait, i just realized i haven't mentioned the title of the movie, but from my blabs about shopping, you should pretty much know that im talking about CONFESSIONS OF A SHOPAHOLIC, only the awesome-est chick movie next to "he's just not that into you".

it's one of those chick flicks which will make you feel happy after the movie,not to mention shop,in this case. it has those fairy tale endings, which,i know is not realistic but wth right,it makes you happy :) the clothes were not as nice as those shown in the devil wears prada, but anything YSL or Gucci or Prada etc are always nice to look at..

anyways, back to the point of this post (ie: the title)..retail therapy aside, i've realized lately that i've reached this point in my life where i don't know what to do anymore. I have no clue why im doing chemical engineering when i don't even have the slightest interest in it, I don't know what to do..i don't know how to take the next step. im lost. or just a little, to make myself feel better. i just wish i was doing something that i like, to make me go to uni, to make me do my assignments with more effort. seriously, how do you work hard on something that you don't even like? especially when its not something easy. sigh

and one sad thing is, i can't seem to make up for the mistakes made. no matter what i say or do, i just can't make everything okay again. maybe a little more time is needed, but surely this is long enough?
sometimes i don't know who i am anymore, the judgement from other people, the things that have been said, the thoughts about me, everything. i feel like i'm someone else at a certain time, and me at other times. maybe i have a split personality, an alter ego (LOL.that's a bit scary to be honest)

and if you were observant enough, you'd have noticed the difference already in just this one post.
i am lost.

Friends

When I think of the word 'Friends', i think of two things: The hit sitcom which you can never get sick of, and the people that will always have your back no matter what.

Having just come back from a friend's 21st,where there were lots of close friends around and speeches about the birthday girl being made, I started realizing how sad it was to not be able to spend my 21st next year with those that i love. How sad it was that I haven't spent a birthday with my incredible 8 for the past few years. That the only special occasions together would be just Xmas and New years eve, which isn't all that meaningful when we all end up drunk :P

Nonetheless, the birthday party made me see, yet again, just how important friends were. Aristotle once said "What is a friend? A single soul in two bodies". Oh, how true Aristotle is. When i think of my dear friends back home, I can see why we are all still as close as we are now. Because beneath all the slight differences and our individual traits, we are all in fact alike.

True friends are hard to find. Yes, everyone knows that. But i truly believe that I have found my own little group of bridesmaids and best man's. The people that will be able to give speeches on my wedding day. *yes i know im thinking too far away, but a girl can dream can't she? :)

A true friend would stab you in the back, be completely honest with you and tell you if you're wrong or out of line. A true friend would know all your deepest darkest secrets and not judge you and just love you for who you are. I, luckily, have found people like that. I remember my bestest friend telling me, when I was having a hard time figuring myself out, that she'd be there for me no matter what, that she'd be completely honest and be a bitch if need be. Another new friend of mine, who started seeing me for me, both the wacky and emo sides, told me that he would love me for who i was. That he didn't care about my past actions..mistakes, that he'd take me for who i am, just the way i was :)

So this post is to all my darlings, wherever you are. You know who you are. To the new friends made, to the old, to the ones that have fallen out but managed to patch things again... I love you all.


all of us:





































































































and the drinking begins.....






























































































































you know they're your friends when....














they stare openly at you....




















they are there the whole night when you cry your eyes out....














when they tag an empty table with their names on it even after you leave...















when they do this to your locker for an entire company to see.....















when they are willing to share a guy with you....

and lastly, you know they're your friends when you want them to be there during all the milestones in your life.....
















xoxo